November 9 R0947 Brooklyn

I’m apprehensive about the new fee structure. I’m now afraid of mentioning things like trips and dinners and shows because if I can afford those, why would I need a reduced fee? I feel the need to explain to Allie that I budget for these things way in advance (I obsessively manage my expenses down to the dollar—then make beautiful graphs out of the data, obviously) whereas therapy is a recurring expense and I have to budget differently for it. I didn’t anticipate feeling so uncomfortable about this. I’m afraid she might think I’m taking advantage of her or that I misrepresented my financial situation. I’m already so embarrassed about not being able to afford twice a week in the first place so I guess I have a lot of feelings about it. My friends unanimously said there’s no need to explain myself but it’s bothering me so much that I might have to bring it up.